I did not get
to sleep last night until nearly morning. Thronging thoughts
of my situation, my recent bereavement in the death of my
darling child, the exposed condition of my wife and children
nearly crazed me. I had heard nothing from Mr Leutze. I
felt deserted by man and by God. The day has been passed
in despondency. Incarcerated by despotic power, and from
the accounts of those who preceded us and are not here,
there is but little hope of release from its brutal grasp.
A proposition from Dr Broaddus that we should close each
day thereafter with a reading o the Scriptures and prayer
was very acceptable and thus closed the day.
Sunday, August 17, 1862
Got but little
sleep last night, and that of a disturbed and unrefreshing
character. The day was passed in restlessness and gloom.
No other thought but of home, wife and children.